#Metallicadiet, the diet that never was!
Two months into my #metallicadiet journey I realized I had made a couple of huge mistakes. Most egregious of these mistakes happened to be a conclusion I drew based on a real shaky premise. That premise being if I lost 100lbs and kept it off by November 28th when Metallica arrived at Taco Bell Arena, I would have conquered my emotional eating habits. The second mistake was using the word “diet.”
Not all my plans fell apart however. I had decided from the very beginning that no matter what I was going to do this on my own. I had a very good reason for this approach. Having a bunch of ideas and processes thrown at me would distract me from the goal. No matter how good intentioned those ideas and plans might have been, it would throw off my concentration. I almost threw myself off by attempting the Keto Diet in the early stage of the #metallicadiet. I don’t have anything against Keto. I just had to keep the focus on Me! I had to make my emotions and hunger the center of it all.
I had success early, and it was a big eye opener for me. You can hear more about that in the lengthy podcast below I did with my friend Robin Woodall. Not too long after I had made a discovery about how I was still subconsciously turning to food to cope with the rigors of life I was faced with a big decision. Sacrifice my recovery and the work I’ve accomplished up until then or Sacrifice the opportunity to meet and interview all four members of the band Metallica. The theme by the way of the podcast is pretty much trying to explain that recovery of this eating disorder has almost nothing to do with losing weight and approaching it as such is almost guaranteed failure.
I decided I would risk missing my 100lb goal to interview Metallica. Honestly it was a pretty easy decision. Between March and July, I had made too many discoveries to risk having to start all over after November. Don’t mistake that for me giving up and not working to do my best to make goal but restricting my diet and extreme exercise wasn’t in the cards through the end of Summer into the beginning of the Fall.
While I had stripped away the keto, and any other diet aspect to the #metallicadiet program I had been on the fence about doing another round of the HcG Protocol. That is something I had been very successful with years ago, though I did end up gaining all the weight back and then some. It wasn’t the failing of the protocol, but my own lack of understanding when it came to recovery. So, in the beginning I had sort of put that in as an insurance policy. I would lose weight without question using it, but the more I learned about how to get to the recovery aspect it became clear thinking of it as a weight loss system would hinder my progress. I did decide to use it, and while the loss is happening the real fruit from using HcG is a test against my mental progress. This is difficult to explain without getting deep in HcG, and it is featured prominently in the podcast.
Bottom line as I write this blog on November 11th, 2018 is that I might very well miss my mark of losing 100lbs, and I’m totally okay with it. I might get within 15lbs, but we’ll just have to see. I can’t wait for Nov. 28th, and I’m in the best place I’ve ever been mentally.
ROCK ON – Big J